Warning: This post is extremely vague, angsty, whiney whatever. And for the record I know there are people in worse off situations, I’m not looking to say my problems are as bad as them or whatever. But they are pretty fucking knee deep bad again and this is my life afterall. I’m not really looking for feedback but if you feel so, leave a comment. I just merely need to vent my frustration before I lose my mind.

Just when you think things become really okay and that it might all workout in the end, a fucking bump in the road comes along. I know it always happens, I always expect it. But just when I thought I’d accepted it, I haven’t and seriously enough is enough! I am fucking sick and tired of drama. Sick and tired of never feeling safe and like I can’t live my life because of how someone else’s has basically shaped my entire past. I’m pissed off and hurt. I’m turning 20 years old next month and this year I have been hit a lot with feeling like I haven’t done shit with my life but basically survive the cards delt. There are so many people around me graduating, leaving home, moving on, mostly younger than me, and to that I decided that this summer I really wanted to change things and get a car, go back to school, possibly find a decent job and so on. Instead of just being here and ‘wasting’. I know people say you can’t change your past but you can change the future, and while that might also be true, is it worth losing sacrificing your friends and family to make a selfish decision and leave? Because that’s what I’d be doing. I don’t know what I’m going to do or what will happen, but one way or the other I feel something drastic is about to change in my life (again) and ultimately shape the next few years.

“Live long, and Prosper.”
- Star Trek

Ahoy mateys!

So shortly after my post a few weeks ago I was left without an internet connection so thus my lack of communication and no updates on my sites. But after some downtime, I should be back now, yippie!

And it couldn’t have come at a better time! Yesterday of course marking the Bright Star premiere in Cannes. Miss Cornish looked absolutely marvelous, what a v-i-s-i-o-n ladies and gentle viewers! She’s getting rave reviews for the movie and I’m so anxious to see the film already. It’s so good to see Abbie back and promoting a film again. I know it hasn’t been that long since Stop-Loss but since she didn’t exactly do much promoting for it per say (given the drama) but given she is one who brings me such joy I want more! All the time!

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“I felt sorry for the shop assistant – she had a lazy eye.”
– Confessions of a Shopaholic

So yesterday we went to the movies and to eat and man was it packed! We immediately regretted our decision once we were there but already drove 30 minutes so there was no use to turn around. Really like I said we forgot yesterday, but we thought about it all day long so we really didn’t want to change plans. But we both underestimated just how packed the mall would be. First off the exit off the highway was bumper to bumper for miles, due to like 30 restaurants all around. (Damn you know the waiters were hating life!). But we did finally get there and had only 30 minutes to walk around (we’d left two hours early but with traffic it crimped our plans). But once there we quickly grabbed our tickets, did a few minutes of time killing and finally made our way in.

First off Confessions of a Shopaholic (more…)