- Current Mood: Upset
- Listening To: News
“I started climbing upward taking one step at a time
The higher I got the harder I climbed
I’m still climbing upward and my journey’s almost ended
I’m nearing the top and you ought to see the view
Oh the water flows freely, there’s enough to make you free
So friend if you’re thirsty climb this mountain with me”
- “Great High Mountain”
Last week, I was hit with something more difficult than I could ever imagine.
This has been an incredibly hard couple of years. My life has never been ‘peachy keen’, and I’ve accepted that, I mean I’m a survivor if nothing else, but sometimes I seriously think that something has got to give. First I moved away from my Grandma and Uncle (we all lived together) to live with my mom, then we moved back due to my mom’s personal issues and “relapsing” I guess… there were other incidents as well. Then last year, My uncle and very best friend came out, “fell in love with his soulmate” (who ultimately broke his heart) and aside from his random dude drama (and suicide worry over his first love breakup, which nothing happened thankfully but he was so depressed you couldn’t help but worry) and ultimately he found someone else (who I hope loves him as much as he does him) and then moved 4 hours away so I never got to see him. There was also my house fire, which left us homeless, with basically nothing and a new set of worry. After thanks to some truly *amazing* people who helped, we were able to settle into a new home and go about our lives again. In June I started my first job, and was consequently fired late last month due to yet another “relapse” from my mother. This was all bad enough, granted it was never as bad as it could be… well that was until I lost perhaps the most important member of our family, the glue which held us together.
On Sunday morning, my grandmother passed away due to a massive heart attack. She was a stubborn woman, sure, but she was an amazingly strong lady, who would have done anything for you if she could. She was an incredibly funny, sassy, loud (definitely loud!), and most definitely a stubborn country person (A self proclaimed “red neck woman”). She absolutely loved her dogs and family.
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- Current Mood: Fun
- Listening To: Nothing
“If only life were a Judd Apatow movie where geeks ruled the world. But it’s not, so let’s just suck it up.” - Weeds
I must say, while I find it a bit ironic but totally thrilled how geeks are slowly taking over the entertainment world. When did it become cool to be a loser? Well sometime post 1999. I guess nerds have kinda had their following sure, but does anyone notice how us ‘losers’ are definitely having the last laugh. Take my baby Comic-Con for instance, this had perhaps the biggest turn out yet - not to mention take a look at the mass amounts of comic-to-screen adaptations over the last 5 years alone. But I friends have been their since the beginning and I’m proud to be a geek. Say it with me brother, are you proud to be a geek? I sure am. I also am happy my fellow losers are getting their share of the spotlight too. Take the amazing “Judd Apatow crew” for instance. Freaks & Geeks made it’s debut in 1999 and while it didn’t score in the ratings it did create a cult fanbase (Yups, I was there!) and still remains one of my top 10 favorite shows. Now look at them, The 40 Year Old Virgin, Knocked Up, Superbad made so much money it’s not even funny. And heck, Google and Youtube were all created by guys seemingly sitting at home in their mama’s basements and now look at them too.
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- Listening To: "Choke" by Hybrid
- Current Mood: Upset
“We’re junkies. I’m a hooker… He’s hopeless. Right now things are very complicated and we haven’t got any money.”
Boy oh boy… I don’t think I’ll ever get a break… Where to begin. It seems like I go through this every month day, so I really don’t feel the need in repeating the story once more. But for ol’ time sakes… Girl has worst luck ever. Girl gets job thinking it will make things better. Girl find the job takes up *so* much time she wonders if it’s worth it but girl actually gets a break for once, or so she thinks on a little vacation, only to have my computer break down (1901090 time now) the day before she departs. Girl enjoys her break, but only to come back to reality and the dramas of the reality she’s in. Girl actually learns there is something wrong with her internet’s wiring (not the PC) and waits weeks on a company technician to have the first available appointment. Finally after all this hastle girl thinks everything was on solid ground once more, but still her PC seems to act up. (Girl truly think it’s Windows Vista now, so be wary all of you with this) so it’s a game of luck of being able to get online. (I also had a few other non online dramas, I don’t think now is the best time to get into.)
So you’ve got the story in a nutshell. I don’t currently have full access to the internet (or a working computer in general) like I used too, but, I am able to use my friend’s computer once or twice a week for a few hours on my days off from work now… I honestly don’t know where to begin digging in online, it’s weird how far your get behind in just a short amount of time… but first things first, I know those of you who are waiting on packages probably have hired men to assassinate me. My plan *was* to pay everyone back the minute I returned, but the reality of that can not be realized until mid August due to something that came up. So in the days I spend at my friend’s house I can work on your things or I can likely pay you back at the end of next month. I know it’s not right, but I can’t change things that have happened and I swear to you when I say I really feel beyond terrible and afraid of checking your e-mails. I hope despite all of my bullshit you still can not hate me. If you want to discuss in private more I am happy to do that, as I really don’t wanna ‘air my dirty laundry’. I am also open to trades if it helps before August. And so we’re clear, I’m closing down Purple Haze Inc. once and for good after this clears - atleast I will do a very, long, hiatus. The site has been nothing but a jinx since last summer and I want to rebuild the reputation I have seemingly tarnished when I’m properly able to come online and have a PC backup. 
Again, remember I’m not 100% ‘back’. While I’m still trying my PC (I mentioned a game of luck, and I don’t have any good luck so you see how that goes) but atleast even if it acts up I can borrow my friends here and there.
So with that being said, I’m gonna be catching up on the e-mails tomorrow and the next day I spend at my friend’s. I really do miss all of you guys, and hope you are all well. I can’t wait to check out the updates on your sites (and my own with Riikka’ heh) I’ve missed! I will try and squeeze in a bit about things I’ve done while I was away on my next post.
- Listening To: "Bang, Bang" by Nancy Sinatra
- Current Mood: Awestruck
“It’s not my fault. I can’t help it if God made me fabulous.”
Amanda Seyfried in the July 2008 issue of Vanity Fair. A hottie has her rise. 
*bows down*
